I’ve
shed so many unnecessary tears
Walking
blinded trusting my peers
Hurts,
betrayal, lies, leaves my sheets stained
Back
burdened weighed down still I won’t complain
Only
if I could have listened with my mind instead of my heart
I am
who I am which sets me apart
If I
only had the gene to not really give a damn
Being
Christ like won’t let me brush off man
Seeking
good in everyone that I meet
Staying
covered anointing my feet
Giving
the benefit of doubt trusting in man
Accepting
your word on which you stand
Allowing
you to stab me in the back, slap my other cheek
Shedding
more tears as I continue to repeat
Having
your back leaving mine wide open
Cut
my air supply gasping choking
Unnecessary
tears
Mind
filled with fears
Doubt
sets in playing with my mental
Confused
not focused emotionally unstable
Doubting
who I am second guessing me
Spiritual
agony unable to sleep
Tossing
turning, turning tossing
Dazed
dismayed constant whirlwind
My
friend yet my enemy, my enemy yet my friend
Double-minded
acquaintances as well as companions
Still
I won’t listen have to see for my self
Contaminating
my mental and physical health
Often
taken for granted presumed to be naive
Gullible,
simple, is what some think of me
Trusting
in people causing turmoil and strife
Planting
toxic seed in the dirt of my life
Unwise
decisions I’ve often made
Head
hanging in shame most of my latter days
Foolish
thinking and actions just the same
It’s
hard for me to change my credulous ways
Blinded
by works of those who are mischievous
Unsuspecting
of one who is perceived to be malicious
Believing
in people makes me an easy target
Readiness
to guide with later regrets
Debating
if I should trust a constant fear
Tired
of shedding unnecessary tears
©2012 Monya Williams
