I find myself lying in bed feeling under the weather yearning for the love of ones mother when they are sick. Yet i don't have the pleasure of having that comfort of such love. Feeling lonely but realizing I'm not alone for my heavenly father is here by my side watching over me in a way not even my mother could.
Lately I have come to the reality that its me for myself sick or well it is only me that I have to rely on. If there is someone else living in the house with me and they do not or doesn't know how to take care of me do I have the right to be mad. In my eyes I say no for they have the right not to and to do as they please.
But I also have the right to want to be around that someone that will do those things for me as I for them. Coming to grips with the fact that I only have me regardless to who I do or do not live with I have to take responsibility for me no one else has to.
So I continue to search for that inner peace of know when push comes to shove it is me and only me. Fixing my food, washing my clothes and taking care of me. I am the one responsible for paying my bills staying focused on my dreams and not allowing anything or anyone to deter me from doing what needs to be done.
If by chance we began to stop blaming other for not doing what it is we feel they need to do and allow them to do as they may just think of all the stress we will let go of. Whatever it is that this individual is doing that you don't agree with remove yourself from them and surround yourself with people that are willing to do these things.
Learn to be there for yourself and stop waiting for others to be there for you.
