As I sit and visualize the things that are going on around me
I often get lost in the evils of jealousy and envy
I try my best to pretend as if I’m just walking down an unknown street
Often unable to find a way out as if I’m in bondage
Temptations of wrong doings will come my way unable to focus on me
The things I see every day are familiar yet so strange
It’s like sitting in a room fill of oxygen yet unable to breathe
Are even sitting in a room fill with light still unable to see
Or a heart fill with love but unable to love
Arms to hold you yet unable to hold you
Legs to stand yet unable to stand
To get lost in ones mind unable to think
With the ability to heal by the touch yet you still live wounded
Having a piece of mind with no peace
As I walked down the street I stumbled but there was nothing in my way
It was that I failed to realize I was getting in my own way
Taking steps forward yet I still look back
Only to throw my whole life off track
Not too proud to ask for help
But when I do coldness is all I felt
See if I messaged your back you’ll stab me in mine
Absurdly with you honesty and truth was a waste of time
Looking through the windows of my mind trying to get the goodness you see
As you take my kindness for weakness and use it against me
Unable to control the things that I can’t change
Seems like the harder I try the more things remain the same
Loosing the battle of my inner spirits so I settle for less
This is my testimony at it’s best this I must confess
Walking alone without man I often feel like a little girl
Without the ability to concentrate I got lost inside the world
