Unnecessary tears

I’ve shed so many unnecessary tears

Walking blinded trusting my peers

Hurts, betrayal, lies, leaves my sheets stained

Back burdened weighed down still I won’t complain

Only if I could have listened with my mind instead of my heart

I am who I am which sets me apart

If I only had the gene to not really give a damn

Being Christ like won’t let me brush off man

Seeking good in everyone that I meet

Staying covered anointing my feet

Giving the benefit of doubt trusting in man

Accepting your word on which you stand

Allowing you to stab me in the back, slap my other cheek

Shedding more tears as I continue to repeat

Having your back leaving mine wide open

Cut my air supply gasping choking

 

Unnecessary tears

Mind filled with fears

Doubt sets in playing with my mental

Confused not focused emotionally unstable

Doubting who I am second guessing me

Spiritual agony unable to sleep

Tossing turning, turning tossing

Dazed dismayed constant whirlwind

My friend yet my enemy, my enemy yet my friend

Double-minded acquaintances as well as companions

Still I won’t listen have to see for my self

Contaminating my mental and physical health

Often taken for granted presumed to be naive

Gullible, simple, is what some think of me

Trusting in people causing turmoil and strife

Planting toxic seed in the dirt of my life

 

Unwise decisions I’ve often made

Head hanging in shame most of my latter days

Foolish thinking and actions just the same

It’s hard for me to change my credulous ways

Blinded by works of those who are mischievous

Unsuspecting of one who is perceived to be malicious

Believing in people makes me an easy target

Readiness to guide with later regrets

Debating if I should trust a constant fear

Tired of shedding unnecessary tears

 

 

©2012 Monya Williams